Sarah's Crazy Life

It's been ages...

2007-07-08T05:28:56Z

... but I'm bored and thought I'd update a little.

I broke up with James on Memorial Day. Things just weren't the way they used to be. Something changed between us. He couldn't get his act together. He couldn't commit to living with me in the city like I had planned. In fact, he couldn't do anything. He didn't have a job, he couldn't ever tell me when he would be coming to visit. Basically, he couldn't give me what I needed and I got tired of waiting around for him. Plus, I've always had feelings for David and ever since Sophomore year I've been trying to convince myself otherwise. But during this past year, he really was there for me, and seemed to have changed a lot. We hung out a lot, he was very supportive, and well... now we're together again. Hopefully for a longer haul this time. I'm really happy to finally be with him the way I've wanted these past 2 years. However, I can't help but remain apprehensive and a little cautious knowing our track record and history. But I'm trying really hard not to let that get in the way of enjoying my time with him. Unfortunately, right now he is in Europe traveling with one of his home friends. We talk every so often and he emails when he can, but its difficult. I can't wait for him to come back so we can see where we are and be together together. In close proximity. The last bit of the school year was heaven though. Sickeningly enough, I'd call it "a dream come true", as cheesy and unrealistic as that sounds.

I'm living in Chicago, alone, and for the most part I love it. I work 9-5 M-F and on nights and weekends I relax and study for the LSAT. I only wish I had more friends to hang out with. Katherine is great, my old roommate, but she isn't 21 and I can't go out to bars with her. I'd really like to explore the city, and I have a few friends around, but it always seems that my plans fall through. Like tonight. Two plans fell through. After one didn't work out, I called another friend, and things didn't work out with him either. So here I am another weekend night sitting around in my apartment, feeling a little lonely and unpopular. Things could be worse. I'm usually pretty busy, its just the times when I get bored and miss David that I start thinking too much and then I get a little down. I've actually been real pensive and reflective lately though, in what I think is a constructive way. Unfortunately, tonight I've been thinking a lot about James though. Not like I miss him or want him back or anything. Far from it. I've learned things about him that make me very glad to have broken things off when we did and sort of regret that we didn't end things sooner. Could have saved a lot of time, money and heartache for both of us. Though it seems like I got over it quickly after breaking up, what is really true is that I had fallen out of love and out of commitment to him a long time before I actually ended the relationship. Oops. You live, you learn. Anyway, I guess I am just reminded of the way things USED to be when they were good between us. I still maintain that our relationship was the best I have had up to this point. I loved him very much and learned a lot from him. It's unfortunate things turned out the way they did, but that's just the way it goes sometimes. I just can't help remembering and sometimes mourning what we used to have. Pretty normal, I think.

Ah well, I'm happy with David. Still in the cloudy, oh my gosh this is finally happening stage, even though he's not here. Seriously though, there is an advantage to him not being here. My moving to the city for the summer is completely my independent experience. I have people to lean on and depend on (family, certain friends) but when it boils down to it I am in this by myself, which is a very good and important thing for me to have in my life at this moment. It was actually perfect if I think about it in the long run. A perfect chance to be myself and grow and experience life. And it's good for David to be in Europe doing his own thing too. But that doesn't mean I can't still miss him and wish he were here or I was there. It sucks, but I'll deal.

janekiddo @ 2006-11-21T17:16:00

2006-11-21T22:16:26Z

I'm home. And yet I feel like shit. Why?

bluesy

2006-11-16T00:29:17Z

I'm nursing a serious case of the blahs here. I dunno what it is, maybe recital let down, maybe the weather, or end of term blues, but its a funk for sure. Get me out!

time flies

2006-11-06T15:37:11Z

One week exactly from tonight is our recital. It certainly came upon me quickly. I feel basically ready. I have a few things to sort out vocally first, but I am basically ready to do it. Both of my parents are coming up, which will be so nice. I miss them, and home. Its like a little mini break before Thanksgiving. Which is then only another week away. And then there's a week of 10th week classes. And then finals. Since I don't have any finals, all I have to do is turn in a paper, I'll probably go home fairly early in the week. This term has been rough. But I think in the end it will have been worth it. Everything that happens in life shapes who you are and what you'll become. I guess that goes along with, everything happens for a reason.

Better and Better

2006-10-24T21:00:25Z

Hmmm...

Accompanist - Nathan Uhl agreed to play for me. Thank God! I am so relieved. We need to meet to practice still... but he's good and I feel that we will be okay with minimal practicing. I need to get together with Sunghun as well, thats a goal for reading period.

Recital Preparation - Memorized my Italian art song. Need to finish memorizing two German Lied. Everything else is in good shape. The hearing is Oct 30 and then NATS is Nov 4th. So by then I hope to have everything, most importantly my NATS material that is also recital stuff polished and ready to go. Oh and I sang in the Area Recital today and I feel it went fairly well, so thats encouraging.

James - Still plans on coming to visit either on Friday or Saturday and stay til the end of the week, but he doesn't have a car yet. And knowing his parents, it may be doubtful that they give him permission. He's definitely going to Ball State next semester and he'll stay there for the rest of college. In the long run, it will be worth it, even though it does suck now. If it's meant to be it's meant to be and if not it can't be helped.

Midterms - Yeesh. Umm, didn't do so hot on my Mythology midterm, which pisses me off because the material is SOO easy. I knew everything, I just had trouble fitting in all the information into the time period. The format wasn't very different from what Professor McNeill usually has but each question was more intricate and required more detail. So I feel like I short-changed a lot of my answers just to finish the test. Boo. My Philosophy midterm is tomorrow, I'm working on that now. Its not as bad as I thought it would be. But lets hope I retain all this information when I go in for the test tomorrow.

Reading Period. Finally. I plan to catch up on sleep, read a bunch for class especially if James comes I'll try to get ahead, memorize my pieces, practice with accompanists, and go out for 80's night on Wednesday!! Woo!

Its only 4th week...

2006-10-19T15:57:03Z

... and I'm already losing my mind. I didn't believe that this term would be particularly awful. I was sorely mistaken. I thought only having 2 classes would make planning a recital a piece of cake. Wrong again. The recital is on November 13th and I still don't have an accompanist for half of my music. I am running around like crazy trying to find someone who can pick up four pieces by October 30th for my hearing. I am also trying to memorize two/three pieces by then. They say you are expected to screw up at your hearing, yeah well, I don't want to screw up. I am 4 chapters behind in my Mythology class and 2 chapters in my Philosophy readings. I have midterms next week for both of those classes but we are going to Bjorklunden for Theta over the weekend so who knows when I will study. I am so afraid for my Philosophy midterm, thank God its on Wednesday, not Monday. I also have a project and paper due for Mythology that I haven't even started. Thats fine, I don't need to work on it until after my recital, but thats just one more thing looming over my head. Oh yeah, and the opera. Trying to learn new material for something so far away is quite frustrating when I am forcing memorization on pieces for the end of next week. The biggest thing stressing me out is the lack of accompanist. Patrice says I still have time and options, but I don't know about that. We need to turn in a recital program to the Con office as soon as possible, and I need to get a set accompanist to send in with that program by the day we turn that in. And I don't want to let Cami down by not being prepared with the program and not being able to get one made. Again, Patrice says they won't be upset if it is a few days late and they will still make us one... hopefully. Now I am singing in the Area Recital on Tuesday so thats one more thing I have to work on, and one more accompanist I have to find to play for me. I hate school. All I wanna do is go home, sleep, shop, and watch movies. And play with James. Who I miss terribly. Ahhhh!

janekiddo @ 2006-10-11T21:29:00

2006-10-12T02:29:36Z

"I'll Find A Way"

I'll find a way to see you again

I used to think that anything I'd do
Wouldn't matter at all anyway
But now I find that when it comes to you
I'm the winner of cards I can't play
Wait for me, wait for me
Darling, I need you desperately, desperately here

And I'll find a way to see you again

The rain is like an orchestra to me
Little gifts from above meant to say
Girl, you falling at his feet
Isn't lovely or stunning today
Wait with me, wait with me
I'm alive when you're here with me, here with me, stay

And I'll find a way to see you again

Why do the street lamps die
When you're passing by
Like a hand that won't stay on my shoulder tonight
If you held me close, would you laugh it away
Would you dare the glance that I steal to stay

And I'll find a way to see you again
Yes, I'll find a way to see you again
I'll find a way, a way, a way to see you again

The rain will bring, the rain will bring, the rain will bring, bring, bring me down

Nothing new, Nothing new

2006-10-05T03:53:22Z

James has come and gone. It was a short visit, but it was well worth it. He got in late on Friday night, said hey, and then went out to visit with his friends. I went to bed, but he came back around 4:00 and then we didn't get up on Saturday until after noon. It was great. Saturday he had planned a whole little thing for me, it was our 6 month. Apparently it didn't go as planned, but I still thought it was great. He had Cami and Genna make dinner, and when we got back from a walk there was this romantic candlelit dinnery thing in our living room and candles all over my room. Talk about fire hazard. And he got me Godiva and champagne. I mean, really, he was sweet and it was more than I've ever expected or received from anyone so I was smitten. Sunday we all just kinda chilled around, went to brunch and that was kinda it. It was nice and laid back. Monday I went to class and again then we just relaxed for the rest of the day. Got some dinner and watched MASH episodes. He was going to leave around 10 that night but the weather was so bad he stayed until 2 and it was still a bitch for him to get home. So we really only had 3 nights and 3 full days, but thats more than if he didnt come. He plans on coming back again for Halloween and for a longer visit, which will be nice. I feel pretty good about us. I got some pictures from the weekend and put them up, I like them. I guess I am just bummed out about him being gone. Obviously. I am usually hopefull that he will return, but tonight I was rather down about it. Its normal to go through this right? I'm sorry that it seems thats all I am writing about ever. There really is other stuff going on in my life, a lot of other stuff, but its more manageable and it goes away quicker than I can get around to writing about it. Mostly what sticks with me daily is missing him.

maybe writing this down will actually make it happen...

2006-09-25T06:05:02Z

I have determined that I need to kick my ass into gear and start getting shit done. I can't play around anymore. I have too much music to learn, too much reading to do and too much everything else to organize, prepare for, and work for. So goodbye to carefree days of putzing around. Hello time management and back to school mentality.

Oh, minor moment of extreme excitement...

JAMES is visiting on Friday!!!

Rearranging

2006-09-20T22:06:33Z

Well. I have just reorganized my entire life. Well, not really, but it certainly seems like quite a hassel to do all this. I've decided to go down (I hate using the word drop) from a BM of vocal performance to a BA. This way, I wont have to take Vocal Ped and Conducting, I wont have to take 2 more Music History classes, and I wont have to be in an ensemble each term, nor will I have to give a full recital my super senior year. I will still need to stay another year to finish everything, but now I am finding myself with what seems to be a lot of free time that I'm not used to having. Usually I am enrolled in 3 or more classes along with voice and ensemble work. Thats all my time. Now, I am in 2 classes and taking voice lessons. Still a full time student, but not what I am used to. I suppose this is good, I can get a job, concentrate on my recital, put a lot into Theta and have time for James when he comes to visit or when I visit him. And I can have time for the opera if I get in.

Back Again

2006-09-19T01:15:42Z

I am so so glad to finally be back here. I really needed it. Its great to be living with all my favorites and I think it will be a great year. Our room is still in utter disarray but that will change with time. I feel so scattered though. I have stuff still not unpacked and the living room is a trash bin but tomorrow I hope to get more done. Its just rather crazy running around doing things, seeing people, getting settled in.

Also, really excited that I get to go to the VR tonight. First time! Cause now I am finally legal and its opening night. Oh finally. Its about time.

Long Distance

2006-09-16T02:51:51Z

I know lots of people do it. I know that I'll get to see him fairly often. And I know in the long run it will be better for us and if it doesn't work out its not mean to be. But damn, it certainly sucks.

Horses

2006-09-08T20:34:26Z

Ohh I just got back from riding Lacey. I had forgotton how much I love riding. And despite her ditziness, she is a good horse and with some work would be great for an experienced rider. I hope she sells, well I hope the people are right for her, and then I hope she sells. They come on Sunday so I'll ride her once more and hopefully they like her. I really wish I had more time in my life for riding. I may try to find a stable in Appleton this year and take lessons. And I forgot how much work it is!

dirty city blues

2006-08-31T20:46:03Z

I don't want to breathe if I can't breathe next to you
I am a middle-aged photographer with nothing left to shoot
I'm going to wipe away the dirt from all these dirty city blues
I'm going to try now. I'll try now not to lose

If the microphone is broken I will scream it in the streets
I will love you like the woodpecker can only love the tree
I feel the wasted afternoon trying to clamp its teeth in me
I'm going to try now. I'll try now to be free

Counting backwards from thirty to one
Everything is perfet in the sun
I can't let you turn away and run
Oh come on now, come on, baby come on now

I see you sitting on the dock, so young and so carefree
Wrapped up in some summer story, water covering your feet
I'm going to try now. I'll try now to believe

janekiddo @ 2006-08-30T08:52:00

2006-08-30T13:52:36Z

he's not coming back

Hmm, right...

2006-08-29T20:37:05Z

Which Greek Creature are you? (pics\detailed\etc)

You are Aphrodite! This goddess had control over both immortals and mortals, making her a very powerful being. You are probably very, very attractive physically, and have a special talent with attracting boys. (You might not realize this, however) Aphrodite fell in love with Ares, the god of war, so maybe you prefer tough guys to the regulars? (By the way, just because you are Aphrodite doesn't make you a slut, in case anyone was wondering)Role- goddess of love and beautySymbols- dolphins, doves, swans, apples, myrtle, rose and lime trees... and of course, naked beauty. Story- One of the most famous stories of Aphrodite includes an apple, Paris, and two other goddesses. See, Aphrodite and the other goddesses were fighting over the apple because it was supposed to be given to the most beautiful goddess of all. So, they called on Paris, a handsome prince, to decide who deserves the apple. Each of the three goddesses promise something appealing to Paris, but it is Aphrodite's promise that wins him over. She promised to give him the most beautiful woman in the world...which would be Helen. And you've probably heard of the whole Trojan war, so I won't go into all that.

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Boredom strikes again

2006-08-24T02:01:00Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (3 guesses...)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (usually, but not always)
✓ I curse sometimes. (Sometimes? Are you kidding... often. A lot.)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain. (Love rain, love storms)
× I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (Yeah.... its awful)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (My mother is my best friend)
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	✓ Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
✓ I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	✓ I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep. (I'm also "kicky and unpleasant" according to some)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
✓ I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (Not stuffed animals, but pillows definitely)	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone. (At times. Sometimes alone time is good.)	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (Who HAS done this?)
✓ I am compulsively honest. (Sometimes, with certain people, yes.)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	× I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (Heh heh, who doesnt?)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	✓ Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

janekiddo @ 2006-08-23T12:45:00

2006-08-23T17:45:36Z

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janekiddo @ 2006-08-23T12:38:00

2006-08-23T17:41:36Z

Haiku² for janekiddo
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home

2006-08-11T15:44:38Z

Well I am home from Italia. My parents were really worried that my flight would not get through because of London fiasco. I've missed so much from home! Greve was like living in a smaller bubble than Lawrence can produce. However, lets just say it was amazing. There's too much for me to try and write about here and now. I have so much to do in the next 3 days before I take off for Indiana to visit James too. I'm kinda overwhelmed. And then I am going to head up to Appleton for a few days to move in some stuff and hang out with Cami, Kat, Taylor and Tammy. Staying busy is good, but yikes!

Apparently I cant give up livejournal

2006-06-20T03:00:56Z

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours.

janekiddo @ 2006-05-29T21:09:00

2006-05-30T02:14:55Z

IN THE STILL OF THE NIGHT

In the still of the night
as I gaze from my window
at the moon in its flight
my thoughts all stray to you.

In the still of the night
while the world is in slumber,
oh, the times without number,
darling, when I say to you

"Do you love me as I love you?
Are you my life-to-be, my dream come true?"
Or will this dream of mine
fade out of sight

like the moon growing dim
on the rim of the hill
in the chill still of the night?

- Cole Porter

its not easy being green

2006-05-14T20:37:12Z

You Are Kermit

Hi, ho! Lovable and friendly, you get along well with everyone you know.
You're a big thinker, and sometimes you over think life's problems.
Don't worry - everyone know's it's not easy being green.
Just remember, time's fun when you're having flies!

The Muppet Personality Test

hehehe

2006-05-12T01:16:51Z

a recent conversation between me and my roommate in our room together
without speaking
because we are laaaaammmmmmeee

Theatrefreak1984: word to your mother
janekiddo: word to your father
janekiddo: and your chatch
Theatrefreak1984: if you give word to my chatch...
Theatrefreak1984: does that mean it can speak?
Theatrefreak1984: because it has lips?
janekiddo: it has lots of lips
janekiddo: it has a lot to say
janekiddo: "helllooooo"
Theatrefreak1984: ok...if my chatch says hello...
Theatrefreak1984: i resign from the female race
janekiddo: what! why?1
janekiddo: 1=!
Theatrefreak1984: who wants to walk around with a talking mouth between their legs?
Theatrefreak1984: i know i don't
janekiddo: true
janekiddo: i'd imagine a talking mouth between your legs would get rather annoying
janekiddo: always have a second opinion
Theatrefreak1984: and if someone saw you talking to your chatch...
Theatrefreak1984: they could think you were one sick mofo
Theatrefreak1984: "hello chatch, how are you today?"
Theatrefreak1984: "well, ya know, it sure gets how down here"
Theatrefreak1984: *hot
janekiddo: "vanilla or strawberry? what do you think chatch?"
Theatrefreak1984: you wanna have sex with an ice cream cone?
Theatrefreak1984: that's sick baby
Theatrefreak1984: ewwww
janekiddo: i mean lube
Theatrefreak1984: oooh
Theatrefreak1984: oops

can school be over now please?

2006-05-09T04:42:02Z

Stressed! Ahhh! School! Ahhh! Good news though, I am going home this weekend for a doctors appt to see what the hell is wrong with my eyes.

Songs I'm stuck on this week...

Hide and Seek -Imogen Heap
Climb The Ladder -Of Montreal
Waltz #2 (XO) and Alameda -Elliott Smith
Sing Your Life -Morrissey
I Believe in a Thing Called Love -The Darkness
Miracles -Jefferson Starship
Ripplin Waters -Nitty Gritty Dirt Band
How Can I Be Sure? -The Young Rascals